Obsticles.

It's a constant struggle to be who I want to be, not who I am, I can't be who you want me to be all the time, I can't always act perfect, and proper, this isn't how it should be. Being "happy" isn't all its cracked up to be. My heart says to do one thing, but my head is telling me to do another. I can't keep up with this character I'm pretending to be, I need to start acting like ashley again. I just need someone to talk to, who really cares about what I have to say, I'm done feeling so horrible about myself all the time, I NEED a self-esteem, because right now its withered down to nothing at all, I'm like a lit candle wick, burning out, and withering away to nothingness. I can't be strong all the time, and I'm sorry for that. But for once, just this once, I want something done for me. I'm sorry if I sound greedy, or selfish, but all of my hard work is never appreciated. I'm babbling about nothingness, goodbye.

ecstatic beyond belief...

So I am finally in a place in my life where I can honestly say I am truly happy with the way things are going.

I have finally found a boy worth my time.
He doesn't care how I look, I can act myself around him, and he thinks my Jonas obsession is cute.
I can sit and talk to him for hours about absolutely nothing and still have an amazing time, I can show him baby pictures, and not be embarrassed about it. Words cannot even explain how happy I am right now.

I just hope it lasts..